Tuesday, January 05, 2010

I am dying inside

I am not only a Navy wife, I was a Navy brat for 21 years of my life. I can actually tell you my  mom wore combat boots. I am proud. She wore them well. Living as a Navy brat prepared be for something I said I would never do. I was adamant about not ending up with someone in the military. It happened. Until now I thought I was prepared for everything. Until I became a mom of children who are attached to their daddy.
We have been preparing the kids for the upcoming deployment for some time now. Princess gets it, Prince, Yeah not so much.
We tell him daily that daddy is leaving. We tell him that daddy will return, It doesn't work.
I am not sure if it is his age (will be 3) or if it the fact that daddy has always came home after a week so he doesn't get it. Perhaps he will when we drop him off.

I can honestly say that I am fine. He has only been home a solid year of our marriage. I can honestly say other then my sanity I can do this. Seeing it through the eyes of my kids, that is a different story. Princess is so used to it that she is okay. She knows he will return. Prince, is having a very hard time grasping it.

Here is to lonely nights, lots of worry and staying busy!

2 comments:

  1. Awwww... I'm sure it's tough. I hope everything will get better soon!

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  2. (ok excuse the horrible [pun)--- I'm in the same boat as you. I grew up a Navy brat (very proud of that fact) but swore that I would NEVER marry into the military. I didn't, he became a sailor after we got married. Luckily we haven't had our first deployment. I'm not looking forward to see our kids through it, and all the other to follow. But I'm counting on my experiences to get us through it. I'm pretty sure I'll manage. But like you am worried about the kids.
    Good luck! Hopefully there will be lots of e-mails, calls, and hopefully skype or some kind of video chat.

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